What did I get myself into?

Just like when I moved to Denver, I have no clue why I decided to do this.

After getting no sleep after my flight, I rolled out of bed around 7:30 and decided to just start walking around. After a 2 hour stroll around some temples, getting yelled at by tuk-tuk drivers, and completely sweating through my shorts…I decided I needed to go back to the hostel to chill out. I then proceeded to fall asleep for the next 8 hours and wake up after dark. Jet lag is rough.

I woke up and luckily met some girls in my bunk who were headed out to grab dinner and drinks so I went with them. We meandered around Khao San for a while and had a few beers while doing some world class people watching.

Basically - its entirely debilitating feeling so alone out here. I know I’m strong and I know I can handle it…but it’s hard. Starting in this insane city of Bangkok probably wasn’t my best idea either.

After my 8 hour nap yesterday I could only sleep for about 2 hours last night so I’ve been up thinking all night…expect a series of posts about what I’m learning about this journey.

A few main themes:

- Be okay with just living, you don’t need to go go go at all times
- Be kind to yourself. It’s okay if you are feeling weak or scared.
- Meditate
- Break your day into manageable pieces instead of 12 hours of space
- Missing someone isn’t a sign of weakness, it’s clarity on where you want to spend your time
- Seek out human interaction